you can rely on me, honey

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

thank you, chad_etc, for posting this originally.

After logging in to leave a holy-shit-denise-duhamel-said-what??!? message on Timmy's LJ, I realized how much I miss my LJ.

During a most fortunate trip to the Burren, one of the local Somerville beer haunts, I wrapped my pinky around my dear friend Jess's pinky and swore I would delete not only my Friendster profile but also my MySpace profile. I'm not attributing the decision to the Stella Artois or the hideous live music. The decision was made to curb my desire to waste time and numb my brain. Now, I'm not denying I still check in on it once in awhile, and I'm not swearing I won't join up again in the future when Boston turns into that inevitable, somewhat miserably cold snowglobe. I just have to admit to you that I am enjoying this time away from the devil's handiwork, all of that reclick-reclick bullshit.

In another act of deep sea cleaning, I will be shifting my focus back to kalea.org by closing the doors on this LJ. More writing, less noise. I'll let you know when I've moved officially.

I am determined to unstitch the overwhelm,
loosen its sticky hem from my hairline.
I cannot think while cloaked in such fashion.
Over whelm, over thought, over fear
of misstep, of no step,
of not moving a damn inch--the stasis of which
would drive me mad in the end
(is there end? in the end?)

I am determined to rise with grace,
to stop chewing potholes into my lower lip,
to start recognizing the sweetness in the bittersweet.
I will no longer buckle to Paralysis,
or let it take me to the floorboards.
Give in, give out, no, give me strong wrists
for handstands and for holding my body up
when it wants to waste the day and night in sleep.

I am determined to reclaim my passion.
Determined to take light into my body so that I may see clearly
the work that needs to be done,
the renovation.

i am old, old, old

I do believe I'd like to give this a shot.

Just because ... .......

12/02 Ray LaMontagne @ Berklee Ctr.
12/07 Iron & Wine, Calexio @ Avalon
02/02 Low @ Somerville Theatre (a short walk from my house! score)
02/07 Sigur Ros @ Orpheum Theatre